Will I Grasp What You Want to Teach Me?

I have SO much to ponder. SOOOO much! I really want to get away for a weekend all on my own, maybe go pitch a tent out somewhere. Then I just want to be.

be

be alone but not alone

exist

soak in water like a sponge

quiet

listen for His still, small voice

I am learning and have much to learn.

Where there is freedom, there is bondage.

Where there is love, there is pain.

Where there is sacrifice, there is new life.

Though suffering, you may have done nothing wrong.

No matter what the cause of the suffering, there is always the opportunity for healing.

What we are taught is the ending, is only the beginning.

Where there is a box to define, there are limitless definitions.

Where there are limitless definitions, there is a box to define.

Where irony abounds, the congruous adhesive of Life abound even more.

Where there is healing, there is hurt.

Though all I have just said is able to be twisted in every shape, form, and fashion, it is only understandable through one sense. And in that one sense, many senses abound.

OH THE IRONY OF IT ALL! HAHAHAHA....I am SO freed in body, mind, soul, spirit at this moment. May it continue ever more! Although I'm very new in all of what I'm experiencing, I am more than willing to share. Be forewarned it is deep and I may barely be able to form words to explain. It is all by the power of the Cross that I am seeing all my eyes are beholding.

I am learning new and glorious parts of life daily. There is so much for me to be unsure of. So much that can be debated. So much that is nothing as anyone has painted it as. Who is to say that there is one Way, but belief in the Way is not a simple matter by which simple definitions for Him are reached? I whole heartedly believe in the Way, but I cannot say that His Way is reached by a single, particular definition. I will not say it is reached by one single, particular definition.

In fact, there is so much I'm unsure of, but I am sure willing to learn. To dare. To be moved. To fight against the grain.

I am on a continual journey. I just hope I learn all from everything, everyone around me I can, as that is where He has placed me.

How much have we thought we know for sure, but it can be debated? All I know is I am but a sinner and His grace is my only hope!

It's Been a While

Wow! It's been a while since I've been able to take the time to sit and write. That makes me sad.

First of all, I haven't taken the time to write. Secondly, my computer crashed so I couldn't (and my roommates extra computer busted at the same time...HA!). Bummer. Now I have access to a comuter because my roomie was given a computer that someone had extra!

So....

Looking back I am realizing how much has happened in the past few months.

1) I have started my job as a medical assistant. I absolutely love my job! It makes me sooo sure of my desire and calling to be a nurse I'm fidgeting just to get there (and I'm sure I will complain when the homework starts to unfold on my desk). I have actually been pulled to Pediatrics for a day too and loved that! YAY! haha...I still have my days of not wanting to go to work from sheer laziness but I consider myself fortunate to find a job I love and enjoying work (for the most part).

2) My parents are going through one of the roughest times I have ever witnessed in my life. If you think about them PLEASE be praying. There is a lot of mayhem going on with the house they were building and it really hurts to watch them go through this. I know that whether or not the outcome is how we want it, God is in control and will make this all right (even if it means they have to wait until the other side of Heaven).

3) The new year has come and we're almost through 2 months of it! Crazy...I just can't believe how quickly time passes us. I wish I would catch up with that knowledge and truly live every day as though it were my last. Why can't we always take everything we know to heart? I think a lot of us would be very different if we really followed all that we know.

4) My sister, Lindsey, is 7 months pregnant!! I am extatic about being an aunt! Little Brayden Thomas March is growing healthily and is measuring larger than how far a long my sister is. Soon enough I'm going to actually be driving up there to see the new fam :) I don't think I could be any happier (ok...well I would be if they lived in the same city but that's just pulling my luck)!

5) I was able to visit with my Aunt, Uncle, and cousins when they were down here. I really enjoy seeing them because we are really close with them and don't get to see them too often.

6) I have somehow managed to get TWO babies from two kingcakes (and of all the people to get it again: my second baby came out of a HUGE kingcake...I mean big enough for at least 25+ people). For all you who are not knowledgable on king cakes: the person who gets the baby, which is hidden inside the cake, must buy the next one. Go me!

That's about it...I have had some pretty hilarious stories since I've become a medical assistant but I don't feel like typing them all out right now.