Is it Possible for Your Mind to Float Away?

I'm not even kidding...is it possible?

Okay...seriously I just am overpowered by God's goodness in my life right now and struggling to grasp that home is now going to be where I make it...so really when you call home that building you go to...is that really the home?

This kind of takes me to many different places. The first being that you grow up (okay the past 12 years for me...so in my most moldable [not a word? oh well :)] stage in life) calling this thing, object made of wood, cement, brick and whatever other building materials people find in these days home. but then what happens when you move away from that? I think it has helped me to see that really home isn't in a building.

You hear (at least I know I have) the saying "home is where your heart is" a lot in American culture (correct me if I'm wrong, I just know that I hear people saying it quite a bit). I never stopped to think of how true that statement is until I was overcome with sadness for my family who is struggling with the move. We've never been split up by such long distances before and now all but my older sister and my brother-in-law are going to be down here in the big BR.

But then I got to thinking: we might have built a home up in AR but if they are capable of rebuilding it and the dynamics changing a bit due to me getting older and linds and drew being in north west AR then really home is the family unit we have functioned under and seen persevere through change, grow, and learn to love one another more as Christ would through trials and joyous occasions. So really home is what you make it, its defined by where you feel free to vent and be yourself and here it's only a glimpse of the real home awaiting you when you have a relationship with God.

And I know some people would say their home life is really crappy and for some of them I would have to agree. But then how much better will it be for them to enjoy what God has in store if they have the desire to fall more deeply in love with Christ?

mmm...I think I'm off to fathom this concept....

Scars

scars burn bright
the present bleeds
pain numbs to help facades
masks they hide
the hideous fear
and inset of reality

scars they scab
and with them bring
a dejavu filled life
all memories gone
helps hide the past
to live with eyes wide closed

scars they pink
with painful pulls
to open the sealed shut
to bring forth sight
to painful pasts
revealing behind the mask

scars remind
of where you've been
of all that's molded you
the searing pain
the aching past
the fire you've passed through

scars they show
all you are
and could possibly become
embrace the aches
live through the pains
keep your candle shining bright

Cute Cute Cute

Okay...at work today I saw probably one of the cutest situations unfold...EVER!

okay okay...let me tell you...

I had just gotten off the elevator when I was on my run to pick up files. Normally nothing interesting occurs seeing as it's just the lobby and I don't have time to sit and watch people (wow...I sound like a creeper but I'm sure a lot of people can identify with finding it interesting seeing how different people go about there day and their reactions to what their paths cross. right? ya catching my drift?). But the second I got off the elevator, I saw this cute old couple. The man was in his motorized chair and his wife was standing next too him looking at him with the most heart-felt "I love you" look in her eyes. What happened next was the sweetest and cutest situation I have ever come across:

She leaned down and gave him the most love-filled, years of trials and rainbows kiss I've ever seen an old couple give one another. It was adorable! It wasn't inappropriate for public but you could just tell they really LOVED one another.

It was heartfelt.

It was passion.

It was years of walking through fire together.

It was...what God designed it to be...at least that's what it spoke to me.

It makes me happy that I'm just falling more in love with Love Himself right now and that, should His will be it, I will marry a man one day in my future and when we've been together 10, 20, 30, 50, a kajillion years :) we will have grown more in love every day :)

But for now..I have the bestest of all of them. And He loves me all the time, no matter what and mmm...it is UHMAZING you guys! I wish everyone would allow God to love Him the way I can feel Him loving me right now. Trusting in Him has been the scariest, best thing I think I've ever done in my entire life. And I am learning and falling and becoming more in love with my Beloved every day! mMmMm FOREVAH!