"Doubt is not a pleasant mental state, but certainty is absurd." Voltaire
I am stuck in this place of constant questioning. Unfortunately, the more I question, the more questions present themselves and they seem to lead to an endless abyss of questioning. So many things seem to have been invented by the human mind because we have to feel some sense of belonging. We have to feel that we can know everything. We have to have some sense of certainty: "I can definitely claim this 100% and say that no one else is right." But seriously, does anybody know that for a fact?
I'm not raising all of this because I feel I have to know. I will admit it is very uncomfortable and not very reassuring to say the least. But I think if we, as a society, were okay with not having the answers and not try to claim something as 100%-know-it-for-a-fact-will-happen-truth when you can't things might look a little different. But therein lies the problem. There are so many different ways of being raised to think and every one of them claims "I AM THE RIGHT WAY TO LIVE". What if I was raised in a Hindu family? Or Islamic? Or Buddhist? Would I not be just as prone to say that is the right way, just as people in the U.S. are more apt to believe that Christianity is the way? But how do we know? We can trust in that way and claim it for ourselves, but you can't actually say you know for a fact that it is the absolute right way. You have to embrace what can't be known. You have to understand that you could be wrong and if you were can you live with that? Can you live with knowing you might have believed in something that didn't really exist?
I still believe in prayer. I still believe in God; I don't believe you can live in this world and explain most things without Him because it started somewhere and it had to have a higher, unbound by time being or power to sustain it. I believe the bible does have a lot to guide life with but I don't believe it as the only form that truth comes from. I don't see the role that church plays in this belief at all. And even with all of this, I have to accept that I might be wrong.
I can't say for a fact there is a God: I've never physically seen Him. I have to trust that what was created was created by some higher power even though I can't see Him. I have to trust that there is something holding this universe together. There is no way to know 100% and I'm okay with that. It really sucks and it makes me see life a little differently, but I don't know how else to see it.
I guess I'm just coming to grips with the fact that I will search and look into the questions I have, but of this I am certain: I will only come up against more questions, more mystery, more doubt, more swimming in the ocean of uncertainty.
"As we acquire more knowledge, things do not become more comprehensible, but more mysterious." Albert Schweitzer
I am stuck in this place of constant questioning. Unfortunately, the more I question, the more questions present themselves and they seem to lead to an endless abyss of questioning. So many things seem to have been invented by the human mind because we have to feel some sense of belonging. We have to feel that we can know everything. We have to have some sense of certainty: "I can definitely claim this 100% and say that no one else is right." But seriously, does anybody know that for a fact?
I'm not raising all of this because I feel I have to know. I will admit it is very uncomfortable and not very reassuring to say the least. But I think if we, as a society, were okay with not having the answers and not try to claim something as 100%-know-it-for-a-fact-will-happen-trut
I still believe in prayer. I still believe in God; I don't believe you can live in this world and explain most things without Him because it started somewhere and it had to have a higher, unbound by time being or power to sustain it. I believe the bible does have a lot to guide life with but I don't believe it as the only form that truth comes from. I don't see the role that church plays in this belief at all. And even with all of this, I have to accept that I might be wrong.
I can't say for a fact there is a God: I've never physically seen Him. I have to trust that what was created was created by some higher power even though I can't see Him. I have to trust that there is something holding this universe together. There is no way to know 100% and I'm okay with that. It really sucks and it makes me see life a little differently, but I don't know how else to see it.
I guess I'm just coming to grips with the fact that I will search and look into the questions I have, but of this I am certain: I will only come up against more questions, more mystery, more doubt, more swimming in the ocean of uncertainty.
"As we acquire more knowledge, things do not become more comprehensible, but more mysterious." Albert Schweitzer
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